The Story Of You: Reason Behind the Name: Ismae

If you wanna know why my name is Ismae, well, this is the story of it.

It all started back in January of 2011 in science class. Okay, so I've known this guy named ______ since 8th grade, and I've always thought he was cute, but I never really liked him. I watched him get girlfriends, and a part of me didn't want him to go out with them. I don't know what part of me wanted him not to, but it did.

Anyways, so 9th grade came around, [and it's STILL 9th grade] and we had science together, and I was thinking okay...not bad...and I guess I never really started liking him until the day we got back from Christmas break, which was [I know this is scary...] January 4th, 2011 on a Tuesday. I don't know why I remembered it, but I did.

And I also don't know why I'm typing this, but I am. I guess a part of me just wants all of this out and the open, and I know no one's really gonna read this or know who I'm talking about unless I'm "following" you on here 'cause you're in my grade, school, and classes, and we're best friends...but we had new seating arrangements, and Ismae and his friend and my girl friend came in always late, and I figured my friend would sit by me and have the boys sit with each other.

Nope.

My friend sat across from me, and his friend sat by her, and guess who sat by me?

Ismae.

And if you're wondering if his name is really Ismae, it's not. I combine my crush's name with my name, and my name is Mae, and his name begins with Is...so...that pretty much gives it away since there's only like 2 names that I know of that start with the name "Is."

And I don't really know what happened to me, but when he instantly sat down next to me, I realized that I liked him. He smelled like a "tropical rainforest." No lie! It was delicious!

Sadly, we don't sit by each other anymore--2 months later--but he sits in front of me.

And yes, he has a girlfriend, and it really crushed me when Lizz and Ninja woman with the ice cube told me at lunch time because I really thought that he and I had something because I don't know...I mean I DO know...it's just odd to express my feelings about it...

I guess this is really what blogging's about? Expressing your true feelings to people, who really don't care?

And it'll be a month and one week TOMORROW--Friday the 11th--I know--I told you I'm crazy!!--since they've been going out, and I really don't think she's into him like he's into her. He acts like he's in love with her, and she acts like she just sees this as another boyfriend to claim she dated; a fling; just something that happened for a bit and then stopped.

And I KNOW when they break up, it's gonna be heart breaking for him. And I wanna be there for him, but then again...I don't know!!!

Still, I don't know whether or not I should get over him. He's all I've ever wanted in a "perfect" boyfriend...please leave your opinions below in the "comment" section of this blog.

I'm done talking about Ismae.

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